I struggle with something. In fact, I struggle with this particular 'thing' just about every day. Some days are better than others. Many emotions come with my struggle. Sadness, hurtfulness, anger, rejection, confusion. It has been over two years now that I have been dealing with this. Have you ever struggled with something?
I think about it every day. Some days it weighs extremely heavy and others not so much. Some days it affects everthing I do. Some days it doesn't. I have talked about with my family, close friends, our priest, and a counselor. It helps to talk about it. It doesn't solve it, but it helps to put it in perspective. What can I do to relieve my struggling? Because ultimately, I am the only one, with God's help, who is going to wash it all away. I have to constantly remind myself that I have the choice of how to look at aspects of my life. Just as I tell our four children, it's all about the choices we make. You can choose to bang on the table AGAIN with your fork, but you will reap the consequences. You can choose to play in the water even after I have said no twenty-seven times, but you will not be happy with the outcome. Just like we stress to our children about making the right choices, choosing to do the right thing, we must also listen to our own advice! I can choose how I deal with my struggle and I can choose to get help. You know what I have chosen? To be positive. To reach out to those who are Godly and support what is good and Biblical. It's not always the easy way to go, don't get me wrong. But it is the right way to go. All other ways will only take you, and me, in circles. I don't know about you, but going in circles never got me anywhere. Be positive, seek Godly support and wisdom, and don't sweat the small stuff. Life is precious so choose wisely.